Where Should I Go?

Before this trip I knew where I wanted to go and who I wanted to be. Once I began this trip I started to question everything.
Last year I graduated high school with the certainty that I was going to study internationally to get my degree. I was accepted and enrolled in a really great university in Rome, Italy which I was so excited about. Let me just tell you I was not prepared to figure out how to get a visa, but I tried my best. Sadly it did not pay off as I did not get my visa in time for the fall semester. So I deferred to the spring.
Flash forward to the end of November when I had nose surgery so I could breathe properly. I decided to defuse once more to the 2024 fall semester because I didn’t want to travel so soon after my surgery and also I still did not have the student visa that was required because in full transparency I spent the fall semester either sleeping or helping others with their lives which was very tiring after awhile.
That spring and fall I moved out of my parents house, started a real tax paying 9-2-5 job, and hung out with friends and family. During this time whenever I would talk about going to school I heard an audible “not in this season”  in the back of my head. If you don’t know I am a very stubborn, strong-willed, and independent person so hearing that still small voice really made me mad. I was going to go to university and prove to anyone who thought that I couldn’t go wrong. The voice kept persisting until finally said “ok, not now, but I’m still doing something. I refuse to be stuck here for forever.” This lead me to earnestly search for a way to get out of my small narrow-minded town and seek adventure. This is how I found this trip. I applied late, made a dozen calls, and even did an interview while walking around target with my sisters so I could convince the people of world race I was meant for this trip. Here I am.

I won’t stay for much longer because my dinner awaits me, but let me tell you what I realized.  I found my identity in my stubborn, strong-willed, and independent qualities instead of finding my identity in the one who made me. I was determined to be the one to save myself from the place I was in. I would not be here on this trip if God had not told me to say yes to this specific trip. Glory to God!

Now I am in the predicament of figuring out where next so please keep me and my future decisions in your prayers! Mush love   Faith:)